100 Facts About Me

So on twitter one of the Trending Topics is #100FactsAboutMe. I wanted to see if I could sit here in one sitting & think of 100 things about myself. Sooo... Here. We. Go!

Started at 12:33am.

1) I'm terrified of pickles.

2) I wear a bow in my hair 99.9% of the time. I feel weird without one.

3) I'm 24 & still sleep with a night light.

4) I watch Sportscenter as much as a man does.

5) I highly despise Kobe Bryant.

6) I have 4 tattoos & I want more.

7) I hate wearing shoes.

8) I'm in love with my boyfriend, Cody & I'm going to marry him someday.

9) I'm right handed.

10) I'm 5' 3" but my arms & legs are freakishly long. I have a very short torso.

11) I can do wonderful one-handed cartwheels.

12) I'm not a very good swimmer.

13) I have a cat named Skittles.

14) I love the beach. The theme of my room reflects that.

15) I've never been to Mexico.

16) I've been to England, Canada, Denmark, Italy, & France.

17) I was born in Rogers, Arkansas.

18) I grew up in Weedsport, New York.

19) I'm going to school to be a sportscaster.

20) I wish it was acceptable to wear sweatpants & hoodies every day of the year.

21) I get cold REALLY easily.

22) I'm extremely claustrophobic & really hate big crowds.

23) I wear contacts.

24) I've attended 4 colleges in the last 6 years, with no degree yet. Haha.

25) I absolutely loooove penguins, the animal & the hockey team.

26) I have a weird obsession with dinosaurs & roar at every thing/every one.

27) The idea of getting old really scares me.

28) I haven't seen my natural hair color since I was 16.

29) My middle name is Alayna.

30) I have 5 brothers. Well, technically I have 1. But with steps & whatnot, it's 5.

31) I'm not too good at walking in heels. I'm learning though!

32) I'm the maid of honor in my best friend, Ashley's, wedding in October. She marrying my other best friend, my brother. :) *my biological brother. Haha.

33) I want to go to Ireland.

34) I did gymnastics when I was younger & I wish I stuck with it longer.

35) I love movies where people's brains are blown out of their heads.

36) I dance like John Wall... a lot.

37) I love LeBron James & I don't hate him for going to Miami.

38) I read the last sentence of every book I read before I start reading it.

39) I'm a fan of the Texas Longhorns (football & basketball), Tennessee Titans, Oklahoma City Thunder, Atlanta Braves, Chicago White Sox, Pittsburgh Penguins, & the Arkansas Razorbacks (mostly football).

40) I dated a ginger once.. & no I have not heard the end of it. Haha.

41) I'm slightly addicted to my phone. Okay, I take that back. I'm really addicted to it.

42) I've also recently developed an addiction to my iPad I just bought.

43) I love boxed wine.

44) I sleep with a stuffed animal. I rotate the animals so they don't feel bad. Ha.

45) I think it'd be cool to have an entire wardrobe of tie-dye clothing.

46) I love peace signs.

47) I once fed a giraffe & it licked my whole arm. It was weird/wonderful.

48) I want either a beach wedding or a fall themed wedding.

49) My two favorite movies in the world are The Sandlot, & The Beauty and the Beast.

50) My first crush was Mike Vitar, the kid who played Benny "The Jet" Rodriguez in The Sandlot.

51) I can watch all of the Fast and the Furious movies over and over and over and over.

52) I love Paul Walker.

53) I also love James Franco.

54) The Spill Canvas is my favorite band of all time. Most people don't know who they are.

55) I have a tattoo with a line from a song by The Spill Canvas on my foot & I named my car after a girl in the same song.

56) I like ducks & have random rubber ducks in my room & car.

57) I have 4 little monkeys on my car's dashboard & a stuffed penguin behind my steering wheel.

58) I'm afraid of flying, even though I've done it my whole life.

59) I have to sleep with a comforter no matter how hot it is.

60) I've met a good amount of celebrities/athletes: Rachael from the Real World, Joe Nichols the country singer, Darren McFadden ex-UofA & now Raiders football player, Marshawn Powell UofA basketball player, Tony Ugoh ex-UofA & now Colts football player, Casey Dick ex-UofA football player, Dez Bryant Cowboys football player, Christofer Drew nevershoutnever, Jeremy Depoyster of the band The Devil Wears Prada, & I think that's it. haha.

61) I can sometimes be artsy.

62) I know a ridiculous amount about sports.

63) I really don't like feet or people touching mine.

64) I'll always be smiling, regardless of what's going on inside.

65) I look for the good in every one.

66) I love dancing - whether it's finger dancing or actually dancing. Ha.

67) I'm a little kid trapped in a 24 year old's body.

68) Most people think I look 18-20 years old.

69) I've been a waitress for 4 years.

70) I want to learn how to do origami.

71) I don't really like talking on the phone. There's only 4 people I can talk to for more than 10 minutes: my boyfriend, my two best friends Ashley & Tara, and my mom.

72) I'm a strong believer in 2nd chances.

73) I have more guy friends than girl friends.

74) I made a deal with my boyfriend that if the Lakers win the Championship this year, he gets to name our first son. This is what he chose: Kobe Maximus Allen Killingsworth. Haha.

75) I'm awful at Words with Friends.

76) I want to live in Europe someday. But only for like a year or two.

77) My mom's name is Vicki. Not Victoria, but Vicki.

78) I have two dads, Larry & Bruce. No, they're not gay. One is my biological father & the other helped raise me until I was like 17 or something.

79) I have a bunch of random nicknames: Yoshi, W-A, Whitnuts, Whitty, WhitneyAlayna, Winnie, Pony, Ninny, Whit, & Rabbit.

80) I'm an avid people watcher.

81) I like to surround myself with spontaneous, fun-loving, happy people.

82) I've become a decent bowler lately! Haha.

83) I'm a Grinch. I don't like Christmas.

84) I'm a Facebook addict.

85) I've been told I'm pretty photogenic.

86) I'm sometimes a grammar freak, but it usually comes out of nowhere.

87) I'm a messy person. Always have been & probably always will be.

88) I take too many pictures of random things.

89) I played rugby for 2 years & it was honestly 2 of the best years of my life.

90) I will visit California one day with Cody & we will see Kobe Bryant play in the Staples Center. I may despise Kobe, but I recognize a sports great when I see one.

91) I used to eat sticks of butter when I was younger.

92) I have a super crush on Justin Timberlake, and I have since I was in 7th grade.

93) I love Dr. Pepper & the candy bar Whatchamacallit.

94) I'm afraid of being buried alive.

95) Bonfires are peaceful to me.

96) I really like camping.

97) The love of purses is one of the few girly bones I have in my body.

98) Sleeping is by far my favorite hobby.

99) I'd probably go crazy without my CHI hair straightener.

100) I used to call my finger my "sook."

Finished at 3:20am.

Haha. I had a few distractions on top of the fact that this was ridiculously hard. But I'm finally going to bed. Goodnight world. :)

I suck at this...

Well, I guess I decided to update this thing.

School started up again, & it's going well so far. I like all my classes & my professors so that's definitely a plus. I have two classes after this semester before I can FINALLY graduate! Then on to the stress of finding out what's next for me. Gahhh.

My brother, Brett, who has been stationed in Japan through the Navy is finally back in the states, along with his wife, Lisa, & my nephew, Blake. I'm glad they're here. :) It's the first time I've met any of them. It's good to have more family around.

Cody's really sick & it's scaring me. He can't move very easily. He'll be wrapped in a million blankets but he still shivers terribly & his body is way too hot. I'm really worried about him. I spent the day taking care of him as much as I could. I feel completely helpless in the fact that I can't help him or make him feel better. I just really hope he feels better soon. :(

That's all I've got for now. Going to do some homework, or read, or just pass out. K bye.

RIP Cpl Chad Wade.

Of course, I haven't updated this in a while.

I've had a lot to think about lately. I met this girl in Arkansas when I still lived there. Her name was Katie. I didn't know her well enough to call her a "friend," but after meeting her once, I knew she was a good person. She is one of those sweet girls that deserve the world. Well she found him in a Marine, named Chad. They fell in love and got married. She started a blog like this but she actually kept up with it. Ha.

Katie wrote about her life with Chad and all the obstacles they had to jump over. The two of them were so in love. I lived vicariously through her writings. I had given up on love and felt that it didn't exist. It was just a figment of the imagination. But I read the way Katie felt about Chad. You could literally feel the emotion through her words. Those words made me believe that even the hopeless people could find love one day.

Then December 1st, while I was browsing on Facebook, my heart sank. I found that Chad, the fearless Marine that Katie had talked about day after day, was killed in Afghanistan. It made me realize that all the measly things that I stressed about meant nothing. Nothing that I worried about or got upset about mattered anymore. This sweet girl that I had once met was suffering something that I could never imagine. The love of her life was gone.

I've continued to read Katie's blog through this terribly hard time for her. Her strength and faith has not faltered. She's as strong as ever. I know she probably won't read this, but just in case...

Katie, I couldn't imagine going through what you're going through. Through your words I have found strength, in every aspect of my life. Because of you, I know that no matter what I was going through, someone else was facing something worse. Chad faced things that none of us can even fathom. Also, us girls who love someone wholeheartedly could never even begin to try to think about how you're feeling. You're an incredible person. You've wrote in your blog about yourself finding peace in this situation. I pray that you have found it & you continue to carry it with you. You're an inspiration to everyone, military spouse or not. As is Chad. RIP Mr. Wade.

I had more to write after this about my every day life... but I don't want to anymore. RIP.

Lately.

As I've said before, I'm terrible at keeping up with this.

Let's see... Lately... hmmmm.

I've wrote before how I was "ruined" when it comes to relationships. I figured it would take a guy that could move mountains to make me get over my fear and hurt from my last relationship. Well, I think I found him.

I started working at Buffalo Wild Wings at the end of the September. During my interview, this guy, covered in tattoos & sporting a mohawk, came over to me & started hitting on me. Since that day, he did not give up on getting me to hang out with him It wasn't a creep pursuit by any means. It was kinda nice.

So, finally I decide I'll hang out with him. I laid it all out on the line. Told him I had trust issues, I come with a lot of baggage, I'm stubborn, & I'm quite difficult at times. I told him if he wanted to stick around through that then he's more than welcome to. He did.

He never gave up. He let me make all the decisions and all the moves. He never once told me "I'm different" or "I won't do that to you." He has worked to prove that to me. No one's tried so hard to break through my barriers before.

Cody is amazing. He IS different. I can honestly be myself around him without worrying about him judging me. He's not afraid to hold my hand or put his arm around me in front of his friends. He's just fun to be around.

I'm still terrified to fall, but he makes me honestly happy.

I have began my hunt for an apartment.

I've been staying with my parents, but I'm ready to be gone. I like staying here for numerous reasons. Home-cooked meals, not having a lot of bills, the hot tub! Haha. But it's time for me to get on with my life on my own. Apartment hunting has already proved itself stressful. Clearly just a preview of the stress that is to come. Weeeeeee.

This weekend...

This weekend will absolutely make up for the crappy birthday I had on Wednesday.

Two of my very best friends, Chelsea Camille & Andrea Leigh, will be here TODAY!Y

Tonight, we'll probably just be obnoxious at the house.

Tomorrow, tailgating the ARKANSAS RAZORBACKS vs Texas A&M Aggies football game at Cowboys Stadium! Then who knows - maybe the fair, maybe the zoo!

Sunday, TENNESSEE TITANS vs Dallas Cowboys game! I'm definitely the only one out of the three cheering for the Titans, but it's cool. Chelsea leaves me Sunday to spend time with her grandma, but Andie gets to stay with me. :)

They both leave to go back to Arkansas on Wednesday. :(

I can't wait to see them. Yes, I saw them a few weeks ago when I went home to Arkansas, but I still miss them. My birthday sucked balls, so this will definitely make up for it.

24...

I'm 24 today.
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I"m not particularly pumped about it. I remember being a kid and thinking 24 was old. Well, here I sit, a 24 year OLD woman. Ugh. Can I just go back to the days when the only things I had to worry about were if my mom was going to yell at me for getting grass stains on my school jeans or where I was going to sit at lunch? Those days were easier. Less complicated.

I found this quote as I was researching Joyce Carol Oates for my English project. This quote wasn't by her, nor does it have anything to do with her, but I liked it.

"I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing." -Agatha Christie

I'm going to think about this quote every time I get down about something. Life's too short to worry about things. Just to be alive IS a grand thing...
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progress report

Man, it's been a while...

again.

But, oh well.

It's going on 3 months since I moved to the Lonestar State. It hasn't exactly been the paradise I had imagined. I got my first job after a month of living here, and I hated it with a such a fiery passion that I can't fully describe it. I often imagined myself falling down stairs and breaking something, for the simple fact that it would keep me from going to work. Finally, after almost a month of working there, I quit. I went a whole weekend without a job.

I got a new job at the Buffalo Wild Wings in Cedar Hill. I told myself when I moved here that I wasn't going to be a waitress again, but boy I missed it. I love being a waitress. It's time to face that fact. So now, I love my job and I'm really liking the people I work with... so far.

Outside of the job situations, I was having a roller coaster ride of emotions. One week, I'd be happy that I was in Texas. Then the next week, I'd be miserable and want to move back to Arkansas. I haven't pinpointed the cause for these ups and downs yet. It could be that I have no one here to talk to or go do things with. I spend my free time at home. It could be that I just simply miss home.

I can promise you part of it is missing my yorkie, my brother, and my best friend. It's weird not being around the three of them. I've gone back to Arkansas to visit twice now, and each time it gets harder to leave. :(

On another depressing note,

my birthday is tomorrow...

It's depressing because I turn 24. Next year, I'll be a quarter of a century old. I'm definitely not okay with that. I'm just going to call tomorrow my 3rd 21st birthday. Works for me.

Good news usually follows bad news...

two of my best friends, Chelsea & Andrea, are coming to visit me this weekend! They will both be here Friday until Monday. Then Chelsea is going to spend time with her grandma and mom while Andrea spends a few extra days with me! :) I'm so excited. Saturday, we're going to tailgate the ARKANSAS vs Texas A&M game at Cowboys Stadium. Then Saturday is the Titans vs Cowboys game! They're both Cowboys fans and I'm a Titans fan.. should be interesting. ;) I'm so so so happy that they'll both be here! <3>

Well, that's it for my progress report.

I'll give this another shot at staying up to date.

It might work this time.

Maybe...